parasite / pierce my heart / a red ocean / drown here

❝ Always as full of wrath as I am full of fear. ❞

- Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves (via camilla-macauley)


i feel like i am running out of time




This is a comic about my own emotions, made to release my own emotions, and to cope with my own emotions.

kind words can cause pain

This is something people need to realize. Depression isn’t about what you don’t have. It’s uncontrollable emotions. You literally do no good by trying to explain to somebody why they should be happy. Chances are, they’ve gone over those things a million times in their just. If you have a friend who suffers with depression, just be there for them. The only way to help is with your support, not by trying to reason with them.

❝ In one moment I was feeling everything and I was feeling nothing. ❞

- Beautiful Creatures, Kami Garcia (via quotes-for-reference)


I had to hop on the bandwagon


Titicut Follies is a 1967 American documentary directed by Frederick Wiseman. It documented life within Bridgewater State Hospital for the criminally insane. In the documentary the horrible conditions are evident, as is the lack of dignity and care afforded to the patients. While it shows no outright physical abuse the patients were bullied and taunted by the guards, force fed, publicly stripped naked with a number of patients virtually catatonic. 

However before it was scheduled to be released there was an injunction which banned the movie from being shown, as it was felt the movie violated an oral contract that stipulated producers had to give the state government editorial control. It was then decided that the documentary breached the patients right to privacy - although Wiseman argued that the restriction of the video was a vastly larger restriction of civil liberties. 

In 1987 families of seven patients who died in the institution sued the hospital and state, with Steven Schwartz representing on of the inmates who had been restrained for 2 1/2 months, and was given six psychiatric drugs at unsafe levels which lead to him choking to death when he was unable to swallow his food. On the movie Schwartz claimed:

There is a direct connection between the decision not to show that film publicly and my client dying 20 years later, and a whole host of other people dying in between.

Ultimately the film was finally released in 1991 when a superior court judge decided that enough time had passed that privacy would no longer be an issue. 

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